Chapter 4/009.. A letter to “Zorro”

 

Chapter 4/009..

A letter to “Zorro”

 

I was rarely in one place long enough to develop deep FRIENDSHIP, and as time went by, my character, experiences & “know-how/why”  distanced me from local, or indeed any “community” ..  the “Strange – Stranger” on my own planet..

This is an intimate chapter, as many are,, with a person, that for about a year was the only person I conversed with, often only 20 minutes whilst he took a coffee break at Miriste from ferrying workers to Mamula Island, which I was opposed to.  We had hearty discussions, and distain for “THEM” ..and I am sure “frightened” anyone who dared listen to us..

I had attempted to connect before I was forced to leave,,

DoBar DAn, 

Zoran mate .....*you wrote that you have the load of 3/4 people...does that make your problems greater than mine

when all I expect is that if you say "ok Bro" that you have the RESPECT to make a note to yourself that I am making an effort to come to HN ,,,,  is that too much for you to understand, I think not, several times since the aborted boat party ...you have "forgotten"

something in relation to me (probably small , and petty aspects to you) and i also have :greater concerns:  ...not least those I laid out in the email .,,which I don’t know if you absorbed... i don’t want or need a debate about this...I wrote from the heart, basta COSI!

 ChRiS

On 11/28/21 10:37 AM, Zoran Bulajic wrote:

> Bro, dont run to fast with conclusion. I realy sorry for yesterday, but i dont check e mail 3-3 time per week bro, and when i saw that you call me it was late :( I am still your friend amigo, without any interest, remember that, but my life is not so calm, i have problems for, al least 3-4 people :(

нед, 28. нов 2021. 08:46 <chris@ursun.net> је написао/ла:

>     Hello Zoran Its just half an hour since I returned to my ~"homebase" and a couple of things improved my mood... * the comical aspect of 2 friendly "lesbian doggies" accompanied me from      Eraci to Zambelici ...   (Difficult to explain the humour of this...as I would have to walk 10 kns from Miriste to Rose, often, in the dark to catch Mikis ferry to Herceg Novi (HN).. and the only ones who walked with me were …dogs..)

and

in spite of the weather and being awake since 01.30h i managed with wind &rain to cope with a full back pack all the way ..i wont apologise for the self-pride ... because .     i was angry...that you replied a couple of days after with "ok Bro" with  reference to meeting this morning..

NOW... i realise ..

  a) the consequence of communicating in MY native language may be misunderstood..

 b) me choosing NOT to own a vehicle

c) the consequences of not using a mobile communicator,,

however , I DO NOT apologise for b & c////!!!!

AND I AM NOT SAYING THAT I ONLY CAME TO HN TO MEET YOU, however it is TRUE to say that it INFLUENCED my choice over the trek to Radovici...( my other shopping alternative during winter was a 24kns round trip there)  that at least would have avoided the mini drama about return ferry to   Rose today!)

AND

>     I would much rather talk HONESTLY face to face than via email..but well ..we both know your reasons..I ANYWAY wanted to have a positive exchange with you today...and now  that won’t be possible // ...the opportunity  ..seems lost.. and I even would have stayed over night, but i know how important your  sundays are for you AND the ferry does not operate on sundays.. and I   dont really wish to spend 50 euros... when i have a quite expensive rental at Miriste..

these are petty aspects ... but what i wanted to "bury" was  the local   atmosphere ... its either been stated OR "implied" to steer clear of  me... this since the "incident" at Porto** ..there has been a distance...  from you, not only due to the closure of locations here... I get it, and     its not a new aspect for me..and i certainly wont apologie for that     either...

i send you my blogs, they are deliberately provocative, my intent NEVER  was to provoke you... i respect you. However this morning doubts that it is reciprocal.. really.. if u cant make a re minder ..then how should i   react...?

i also realise that you may doubt my stories/history as told to BY ME! ...you are welcome to visit me ...i feel i may  still have sufficient (evidence) to support everything i have told to you in confidence and GOOD will///...

lastly , I admit that I also was perhaps seeking some "Zorro empathy" as  tomorrow (28th ) is the birthday of my estranged little girl Noela (you  may see my notes on my blog...?)

SHE is no lomger mine, or little at she will be 20 years old... ( *as for this chapter 21 approaching 22?)

 and ..on wednesday next (december 1) would be the birthday of Jacqui...the most womderful and loyal wife  a man could ever have ..and I respectfully suggest that when those "temptations" arise in YOUR life... that you should thank goodness for your woman & daughters!!!

Lastly. ... in my culture we dont say "Bro"  ... we might say "Hey "La"     (Lad) ... or Brits sometimes say " alright my son"  (nothing to do  with age / relation) or “ hiya Mate"  as friendly greetings...

I probably wonmt see you again for a while, and have no idea how or if   you will react to my honest feelings. ... it has reminded that i always    ~expect"  and i doubt that i will ever change that part of mycharacter.. so i truly & honestly wish you & those you love the very  best!

SINCERELY,

ChRiS

p/s watching "Braveheart" again,  (I had no bet, so he copied some films to my USB so I could watch on my computer) just reminds me how much i hate the english, and their   royalty/"nobility" (they took OUR land from the people..)  ( in the midst of his victory ... they squabble about their selfish claims to wealth..why would anyone fight for  these a-holes ?? in the last 2 000 years how many young men have been wasted fighting to enable  the FEW to retain their selfish bogus claims to  property & power.. the   sheeple are also to blame..!

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On 2021-11-27 21:53, chris@ursun.  wrote:

i tried calling u from pub got ...no answer??  i may be stuck here,,,

On 2021-11-27 19:11, chris@ursun.  wrote:

I am here ...;)

On 2021-11-25 21:11, Zoran Bulajic wrote:

Ок bro

чет, 25. нов 2021. 10:

 Hiya Z , did u work today,?

I got some rakija, but IF I stay awake I will go early saturday so More than 50/50 chance to be in HN saturday ... (at "Got"  10.30/11h ) ?? if u wish to share a coffee/ciggie/Loze ? let me know IF u get this

 (I sent  a big email 2 weeks ago to your POl ice chief ...maybe u aren’t getting my Monty mails either)

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