Ch 3/04 women & girls “rule mt world” ? & musical messages

 

Ch 3/04   women & girls <don’t> “rule mt world” ? & musical messages

 

The weather is hot & humid even in the mountain area, I ran ¾ kms this morning &walked another 10 kms..the noise from the traffic wasn’t the only way I was woken up,

Just laast night,,was woken many times..I have been following the “Stars” because I keep getting these messages.. & music ones at that  so commented of Tarot readings by Jmmy & Chris <pond> 

 

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Jimmy/Chris ​ @MinnowPondTarot  it depends on the song...Chris, ha ha ha , sometimes i want the message, sometimes not, hey I am a Gem! :) ...its 02h here in europe, I didn’t want to be woken up. Probably.. as i am THE European I observe many americans tend to be more into these, and your smile ..style would be attractive to them, obviously ,,

,my wonderful wife <departed young through cancer 2005> used to call me a "cynical optimist" I would pull things apart but go for the impossible anyway. Sometimes it worked.. I don’t suppose u will be a fan , but I am really into a series "The old man”. As it resonates...<watching it for the 2nd time & interested in season 2, much like how I feel about life... strange week, well not so strange for me, 2 steps forwards 1 back...but . .we shall see, I do NOT want to let my , often cynical attention to detail block my vision too :), best wishes, ChRiS

I get "messages" mostly during half-dream state in the night, but sometimes in the day, repeating a line or lyrics from a song, any genre from any era,, have you any experience of such "messages?"

 

 

Have often been told I am at the 10^th spiritual state, the last earthly life phase.. according to some beliefs..

 

Somgs …”You’re so vain!”  and …( plus a negative song lyric I forgot now)   “too sexy”..and..that Tom Jones…song “women & girls rule my world…”

 

 

SloDa via 1Team posted>  … Where is our KELTS hero now?

Thos spooks at “L & G” : are absolute xxxxxxx <fill in your chosen word of insult> HE has spent the last 18 years campaigning for a better local & global society, hosting & helping hundreds , if not thousands, of people and they put out on street without funds in a hostile situation, but we cant wait for Justice, we should GO viral, and if the result is those of th company lose their jobs when the industry collapses, they experience the pain… bet they wont cope as well as ChRiS!

And..

About the Island “education” project..

• HELLO AGAIN..
  Gabriel/Winny
  If I proceed I expect mutual respect and careful communication between anyone involved & it starts NOW , between you & me, too many people are lazy or brief with communication, if you/we are to show the way to kids we must apply careful methods ourselves! Ok?
  its better to be GOOD & effective, than to be "modernized"...!

as for myself I may have alternative ideas to your ,..what I would call " traditional education”. If you look at the "western civilized" world as I do...WAR business, POLLUTION & poverty policies, addictive pharma, fake markets & false currencies, obsession with property ownership..

what will you learn ?

...be careful what you wish for!

230823 Hello all at RTi 23 Nairobi

I am attempting to assist a CSing contact, <see email from Gabriel below> with an NGO initiative in your region, I was given your details by RTI vice president, and ask that you give this some consideration, if at all possible! as it appears to be genuine...

I am also <if you scroll down to my mails, leading my own F & U ngo initiatives and will see what can be done from my side..

I f u want my help try using my name too?
its difficult to be partner .. if u do NOT understand me...
1. The RTI group COULD help with sponsoring
2. My idea is not complicated ..I don’t support the "traditional" education of the west ... it leads to WAR, pollution & virtual slavery to industry
my way is use alternative methods which get children to teach themselves ,they learn confidence and character!
capische?
ChRiS

 

And…

 

From the <series> “The old man”,,, found out about his wife who he “rescued” ,,  that he was possibly being played. By her..

 

Not long after I virtually permanently separated from Jacqui, after a brief affair In Bielefeld, with young Sabina, (sx) and a dinner & overnight stay with Matthius’s ex GF Regina,<Schwanke?>..near Frankfurt who called me  “sugar-CHRIS”

 

I was BASED, at that time, in Freiburg, after sharing MB’s flat I found my own in “Bromberg Str 33”.. but was with “Wirthshaftsforderung Saxon” <development corp> paying me 10,000 for doing not much & was also with Michael Sadlo in hos office, seeing what I could do, although my german was terrible at that time.. “Ich versteh nur bahnhof!”..

 

Dresden was a different place..and a boatel on the Elbe was my accommodation during the week, and I would go back to Freiburg,,,, one Friday there was a STAU on the autobahn, and after several hours, I stopped off at Worstburg, where RTabler Ernst (and he was) lived with his wife, who I hadn’t really met..

 

Well the whole story of me spending the weekend, and what followed , Franzisker moved , with their little girl to my place in Freiburg,,,, I was exciting, a world traveler & much more, with stories so different from Ernst…<in detail elsewhere in book> ..

 

She styed with me for several months after we had some secret & passionate meetings beforehand…the physical contact was explosive.. but more & more I got that feeling. And I knew in my own mind, when she invited ME to go to dinner, not long after the “bodyguard film” we both kept humming the lryice “I will always love you” (goodbye> tune.. that she would be leaving me, and it was the best thing. As it happened.(my life changed completely the following easter…coma! & ….)

 

Just Like Johnny’s wife (Mrs Chase”) in “The Old Man” …I WAS the “bridge”..

,,,for Franziska….

 

,,because after she left me, without a trace, other than the “dear John” note <I will love you forever”. ….,it was CLEAR that I was that bridge …out of that stale marriage to Ernst,,,,she eventually hooked up  & I think married, another Round Tabler from Karlsruhe, rich, which would have suited “lady macbeth-stein” 😊 _meeowww!

 

  and Jacqui ??? I trusted, 2000 % …whoever was around and I knew  there were a lot of guys who wanted her.. we went to a lot of social functions.

I believed in her.. because I saw in other aspects of her character or mentality. She had suffered along with me, stood by my side, had enjoyed the good, the GREAT and the difficulties..

 

But the song..”Secret garden” by Bruce …almost Says it all , with women you can never 100 % be sure..They are the potential traitors’, who may well feed you to the monster to save themselves, they can do it without flinching, without regrets.. and often can easilylie as part of their way, their mothers teach them, to lie to get a man,..even without knowing it, ..automatically..they are taught..

 

To dress up in the most attractive clothes, the make-up, the mask..FEEmales are much cleverer at this than the average male.. and now the modern fee-males use men like men of the 80’s used women.. use then discard them.. 

 

Because they, well some may, if not all, are loyal to their nest.. not you, they will go , like cats ..to where the cream is..  & when YOU have no cream…

 

At the end of season 1  (of “The Old Man”), I feel my feelings drift to the father who lost is little girl at the age  of 3… as I did…after losing all others ,,

Adam died due to neglect by my first wife & a monster that destroyed his will..

Adopted Sarah, who “was found” by her biological father, & cut me off..

And Leon possessed by his domineering mother..(Annika the actress) still in Freiburg

But Noela… her mother Margit was & is weak, does Noela now 21, have my strength to find me..?

 

My women”?

 

I wont do the a-z…but I felt all of then. More or less..  I had an extreme time when I was searching for more & more to feed my “drive” & massive energy…3 different GFs & Jacqui, I AM NOT PROUD.. of that time.. but I do think that if I had accepted Jacqui & Linda’s token proposal to “share” me.. I would have had a “calmer” life..but MY ONLY clear “REGRET” is that I broke MY promise regarding Jacqui, she didn’t deserve to die from the cancer, she gave me more than I deserved and I carry the consequences in my own way..

 

There were funny relationships, short & long connections... Mary/Marija of Malta, who I fell for, and almost moved to Freiburg (pre Franziska) with me, but guilt and intense pressure from her “fundamental catholic family” made her SICK, because although her husband had left her 2 years prior, she was still “Married” in their eyes, she was lovely..

 

Annika & Margit of “Germoney”..both stole children so that clouds my memory of them as “lovers”.. my “town hall mole” Angelika,  young French girl who “hit on me” (N..name with-held?) and Nicole of the Dijon office who virtually “raped” me, after a business meeting, dinner & dance at the motel stay-over. Her following letter was moving…The Canadian lass I met on the plane to Malta, showed me that Island,  ,,and much more,who met me again “en route” near  London Airport for a “brief encounter”

 

Csing Suzanna, “the non pole dancer from Krakov” who finished off a bottle of Rakija with me , came back 3 times, declared her love, then…. Faded away with her summer departure ,,Jose the mad dutch lady who left her husband & 2 children to have a FLING with me.

]…..then showed her “dark side” 3 times in mad circumstances before I said “enough”..

 

As a teenager I was so shy, no interest either, football was (and still is> my main LOVE..I wooud RATHER play in a GOOD game of football for an hour, than have the most beautiful and willing woman in my bed for the same period..

 

There has been No one recently, and hardly likely as I feel my “baggage” increases, and FEE-males lack of understanding distances me from a “last fling” …I am not “looking” & after all the kilometers of this face, I doubt they are looking. For me!